This is Me

March 5, 2023

Good morning my friends.  I hope you are doing well and enjoying life.  Here we are, already into the first week of March.  In January, I wrote a blog that traversed the notion if there is a “secret ingredient” to life.  The idea of resolving this elusive mystery stayed with me.  I believe there’s more than one solution or answer to this issue.  This is my theory.  The universe has been in existence for many billions of years.  Everything on this planet (including us), in our solar system, galaxy and across the vast and never-ending universe is all created from energy.  Every object and living creature possess a single piece of energy that is from the same source; the Divine.  As humans, created from Gods image, we all possess unique and special talents, abilities and powers.  Every person is a rare, singular and individual gift.  The mind, body, personality and spirit of every person on this planet is exclusive to each of us.  No two people are the same.  Even “identical” twins have their differences.  Simply stated, we are each the “secret ingredient” of life.  

You can believe in my theory or not; it’s your choice.  My belief in God is only a small part of the universe and life puzzle.  I am aware of my energy; and how it connects me mentally, physically and spiritually to all things.  I know and understand my own capabilities on earth.  My self-confidence and strength help keep me grounded and positive.  As I’ve grown and matured, throughout life, so have my perceptions and attitude changed to keep me on the right path.  I’ve learned that slowing myself down has a direct impact on my health and understanding of life.  The fast pace and top speed everyone is moving these days is demanding and stress filled.  Many individuals don’t relax enough to enjoy the simplicity of just breathing.  I’m not asking you to believe in my views or theories of God or the universe.  I am, however, suggesting that slowing yourself; physically, mentally and spiritually; can bring new and improved life into your body.  Fill your life with Gratitude, Happiness and Love.  This is where you’ll find the secret ingredient to living.   

The beginning of my life was spent learning, maturing and growing.  My career in law enforcement built on the frame work that had been developed during childhood.  The nearly 34-years’ worth of trauma, destruction and death I witnessed or played a role in, further closed my heart and soul to emotion and love.  The process was an automatic response, like throwing up an arm to block a punch, in order to keep myself safe from the sorrow and tragedy of life.  During the last eight years (since retirement), I’ve released my past, dug deep into my soul, processed my trauma, rid my mind of nightmares, continue with my daily shadow work and opened my heart.  It’s been an amazing experience; but not without its heartache and sorrow.  I never expected my life to turn out the way it has.  It’s been an adventure, to say the least; from cop, to yoga instructor, to having my protective armor cracked open by love.  It’s amazing how life and the universe (and we as humans) evolve.  I’m open to the alterations of my perception and the opportunity for positive change to come knocking at my door.  When an incredible love found me, it set me on a new course of self-discovery and healing.  Ultimately, the love lost, opened my heart and soul completely.  It stripped me of everything I thought I needed or wanted, bringing me to a new revelation of truth.  I am forever grateful for all the amazing lessons this experience provided.  I’m grateful for each new sunrise and the opportunity to become a better me.  Each morning I wake up and thank God for the gift of life.  It doesn’t matter if the sun is shining or the sky is dark with clouds; I’m happy to breathe and enjoy what the day brings.

My life has evolved into a transparent journey of health and happiness.  I openly share my thoughts and heart with you.  My intention is to create inspiration, motivation and discovery into your own existence.  We all share the journey of life.  How much are you willing to contribute to assist your fellow humans.  I no longer worry about the past or stress over the future.  I never feared death during my childhood.  During those years I was more fearful of losing a parent or family member.  As I grew into adulthood, and into my law enforcement career, I was knee deep into near daily trauma and death.  I didn’t fear injury or dying, as it’s a by-product of living.  We all know it’s coming, but rarely are we willing to discuss or acknowledge that fact.  Whether it was fear or ignorance, I believe it’s best to make peace with myself and God now, before the end comes without warning.  I knew it would eventually be the final result of living, but being a police officer amplified its existence. Now, I find myself at a new stage of life; discovering the universe and all the possibilities it has to offer.  My only fear is dying alone.  I don’t care who you are, how tough or strong you believe yourself to be, death remains a scary thought.  It doesn’t keep me awake at night.  It doesn’t prevent me from leaving my house or doing the things I love.  I don’t dwell on the subject, but it does cross my thoughts from time to time.  I have always been strong willed, controlled my thoughts and manage my pain.  I’m not superman, perfect, or een anywhere close.  I’m human, have feelings and emotions, like everyone else on this planet.  I feel the hurt of pain, whether it’s physical or mental.  I believe in God and a spiritual life here after.  I don’t fear the day death comes for me.   I pray it doesn’t take me before I share all the love I have to offer and give.    

I don’t need an expensive car, a big fancy home or lots of stuff to be happy.  The things that are most important to me, aren’t things at all.  The people who I cherish and love is what matters the absolute most to me.  Possessions and places are nice, but are meaningless to me, unless I have my family and most special friends to share them with.   Making fabulous memories with the love of your life, is what makes life incredible and beautiful.  Life shouldn’t be about what we have, but who we have to share it with.  Take some time every day to just sit and be in the moment.  I’d call it meditation, but that words seem to frighten some people.  It’s not scary or some funny ritual.  Try just relaxing, closing your eyes and focus on your breathing.  Push all the thoughts from your mind and allow your body to be quiet.  It really is quite nice to de-stress in silence.  This all translates into being present.  Give it a try and listen for new words of wisdom to appear from within.  It can be a magical experience, if you allow it.  Now it’s my time to trust myself and intuition.  I’m strong, confident and standing on my own two feet; opening my heart and soul to the universe.  I’m happy to become the person my soul always knew I was meant to be.  This is me.  Follow your dreams.  They know the way.

Please tune in and join me again next Sunday for more!  The puzzle of life is always changing.  Change can lead to amazing opportunities.  Together, let’s be healthy and strong; mentally, physically and spiritually! 

Thanks for your love and support!  Embrace Life!  Be sure to get outside and enjoy nature!